WERID LIFE!!!

Brand new year 2012!!

2012-02-01T08:25:00.001-08:00

It's 2012!! A brand new year!!
It's a new year that I'm with love..
2nd day after new year I left to china for sch trip.. Went about a week.. Will never forget e moments before I left..
Bee called me throughout e time before I get to e gate.. He wanted to come but it was to early n no transport.. So I told him no need to come.. Somehow I manage to connect to wifi n FaceTime .. I was so happy to see him thou it's over e phone.. But I'm still happy.. Thou I wanted to hug him so much.. I was very upset as I hang up e phone.. Teary eyes but control my emotions.. Didn't wan bee to get upset too.. Could he in his eyes he didn't wan to say bye.. Somehow bee always manage to see what I'm thinking sometimes.. Each time I was shock when he knew it.. Or maybe I'm able to know what his thinking.. My cute annoying bf~ ❤

After I reach I went to buy e Internet prepaid card.. Once I got it we what's app e whole time.. More than what we what's app when I'm in sg.. I even tries to FaceTime when I was at e hotel lobby.. I was happy to see him! But after that I was a bit pissed cos his phone was vibrating loudly.. N I said him.. N it was e day before I fly bak.. He said he would come & fetch me from airport.. I wan happy but didn't put much hope.. Cos it's a midnight flight n I'll touch down at 6am.. It's so early.. I thought maybe he wouldn't be able to wake up.. But to my surprise he did wake up n was waiting outside tgt with my mum & sis.. I immidately smile at home & kissed.. My grandparents were also there tgt with my aunt.. I was so happy I came bak & all gathering tgt as a family.. Of course including bf.. Feel super diff after e trip.. Grandma had a 180 degree change in attitude toward him.. He was okay with him n didn't give me a unhappy face.. I was please.. E next day was my baby sis bday n I ask mum could he come along & she agreed.. I was surprised! & happy! Hahah! So I ask him to come along & he came.. On that day onwards everybody knew I had a bf.. I can openly date.. After that week.. He came a few times over my place to have dinner with me & accompany me.. Grandma didn't make a single unhappiness.. This was like a dream to me.. I never thought this would come so soon & sudden! But overall I was relieve that everybody accept e facts.. As soon as all this happens it was my grandma's bday.. I asked mum of bf could come along but mum is afraid that grandma wouldn't like it.. & it was on our 6th monthsary.. I had morning class n ended early.. So I waited for him at amk & have lunch tgt.. After that he when home with me.. To my surprise grandma ask him to come along for dinner celebration. I was shock! But smiled after that.. Mum was shock also after I told her.. Hehehe! Grandma also invited him for cny lunch gathering with my entire family. That was e largest shock of my life! Grandmas love was over flowing in me.. Makes me wan to burst into tears.. Cny 2nd day I ask grandma if he could come & stay over as he has something's to do early morning. Surprisingly grandma agree without much saying from me to her.. Huge step out!! Anw e next day when mum came he wanted to bai nian with mum but didn't know what to say n approach her.. Coincidently she when to toilet just outside my room so I called her in n he shyly bai nian with her.. Super funny scene.. Mum also burst into laugher.. Hahhaa! He wanted to bai nian with grandma too but didn't have e chance.. But grandma gave him a red pack.. From that day onwards I know how it feels when everybody approve your another half & have all gatherings fun! 😄thanks grandma for everything.. Love~

Christmas~

2011-12-25T06:04:00.001-08:00

Had an awesome Christmas party!!!! Thou I wasn't happy at 1st when celebrating at aunt hse but after that I was super happy max!! When clubbing with grand aunt, aunt, her bf & yuhru.. I was actually disappointed cos Dennis didn't celebrate tgt.. He was sick plus he didn't like Christmas.. But I have to understand.. Anw I still enjoyed myself cos I was fucking high!! Dancing like crazy~ awesome night!!!!!! Lucky I didn't drunk.. Else my grand aunt will be in shock!! Hahahaha!! Party until wedge spoil & I have to use my rubber band to tie 1st.. But I took off & dance bare foot when I'm at groove.. Haha!! Ppl was looking at me but I fuck care man.. As long as I enjoyed myself everything's okay!!!!!!!! :D
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!

Loved

2011-12-12T10:30:00.001-08:00

Super happy 19th birthday I had.. I will remember this day of my life.. Had so much fun!! Fucking high n drunk.. Thanks bee for looking after me.. Thanks baby & Meimei clean up my mess.. Thanks everybody who clean up my mess too.. Thanks everybody for coming to my celebration.. Plus sorry people who I did funny thing when I was drunk.. So SORRY!!!!
After that night all e things that happen I understand what happen n I'm clear of e things that I was thinking/worrying & what was on his mind.. Thanks Andorria helped me in it.. I thought we would just end like that.. But after that night I'm more confirm that I don't wanna leave him at all.. It was all me that I was thinking too much.. I suddenly lost secure from him.. & doubt e trust.. Now.. It's all over!! I'm clear of everything now.. :D super clear of my heart.. Bee I love you!! I love you DLWJ!!!! <3
Once again I'm sorry that night I was drunk n hugged other guys.. Sorry I make u keep so many things inside all to urself.. Make u suffer so much.. I've stop contacting guys so much already.. Unless they talk to me I reply a few den nv talk already.. Cos I have you it's enough already.. I don't need other guys.. I know where I belong.. <3 :D
I'm so SORRY!!!! For everything.. I shouldn't have think so much.. I love you always..

Love baby<3

Happy

2011-12-12T10:29:00.001-08:00

I smiled!! I thought I wouldn't have this feels bak again.. Just as I knew I was thinking too much.. Just as I saw u I was smiling.. No pain.. No bleed.. Not broken.. My heart was fixing bak on its own.. Guess ur e cure to all my problems.. I really love today.. This moments tgt.. Miss all this feelings.. Love all this feelings.. :D thanks bee for all this happy moments.. I'm going to miss u MAX!! Wish everything could stop here.. Wish everyday could be like that.. Wish every moment could stay like this..
Wish every part every single day of my life there will be u taking part, joining me forever.. Think I'm gonna marry u.. 1st time having this feeling of wanting to really settling down for life..
Once again I think I'm naive..
If this is a wonderland it would be e most dramatic story I ever come across..

Understand

2011-12-12T10:28:00.001-08:00

Ive made up my mind.. I will leave.. As long as ur happy I will.. Guess ur able to move on faster den me.. Guess I'm not good enough for u.. I will keep everything a secret.. U wouldn't know all this.. Just take it as im a bad gf.. Just another girl that doesn't makes u happy.. Having me doesn't make ur life any better.. Thanks for this 4 mths.. I'm really very happy.. Never in my life I have put so much effort in it.. Ur real special in my life. I'm willing to do so much thing for u.. Thinking bak, I wouldn't have done it if I wouldn't have love u so deep.. I guess I can't take e hot & cold.. My trust was there.. My heart was there.. Now I'm broken.. Just gonna pretend I'm fine.. I will be fine.. Maybe it's just me thinking too much.. Sorry!

I love you DLWJ<3
Always will..
Love baby..

Teary

2011-12-12T10:27:00.001-08:00

It's been 4 mth seen we were tgt.. So many things happen within this 4mth.. I don't understand why we r like that now?! Why?? Why make me fall so deep n u ignore me now? Treating me hot n cold! What is this?? Seriously?! Why!!! We were fine n happy for w past 2 mth.. Den something happen n u disappear!! I was so up sad that period of time.. But I know u didn't just disappear for no reason.. I know something must have happen that ur like that.. N I guess correctly.. Something really did happen.. I helped u solve it.. Den everything was fine.. Den why now this?! Just becos I was close to keyon n he called me dear? Den ur like piss?! I didn't even get mad when ur close with other girl!! He's drunk that's y he anyhow talk.. I didn't contact him now.. Can all this get over with? R u not going to talk to me anymore? Why bee?? Why?? Why this time?? Why now?? Why did I fell so deep?? U don't trust me? Or u change? U didn't love me?! I'm totally broken now.. I don't know what to do.. I don't wanna loose u.. R u better off without me? Why I'm so serious in this r/s now n ur like that?? I did so much I've nv done before.. U made me feel ur so special in my life n now ur gone.. Why!!!!!!!! I'm tired of crying my self to sleep.. Can u tell me why? U don't love me already? Or am I just so stupid that i though u would like me this kind of person? WHY BEE!!!!!! I miss u so much.. I don't know how to stop thinking of u.. I've loose u once.. I hate that feeling.. I don't wan a second time.. Is it that much for me to ask for? I'm always so scared to loose u.. R u afraid to loose me? Do u even give a fuck about me? Were u jealous or wat?! What r u thinking now?? Have u ever missed me?? Did I ever come across ur mind ?? Becos u always come across my mind.. I dont know how I'm gonna live life without u when u were so impt n mean so much to me.. I'm super pain.. Baby can u tell me ..

2011-09-10T13:41:00.001-07:00

Watched soccer!!

2011-08-30T01:01:00.001-07:00

我上辈子做了设么？
Why is my life so happening??
Why is everything going wrong??
Why everything must happen on me??
Why can't I just have a normal life without things happening??
Why everything must fall when I just started to wan to have a proper life?
Why must things happen when I'm feeling bliss??
Why sadness must come after happiness??
So many why who can ans this question for me? Thou I know some ans to it..
Another sleepless night.. :(
My heart sinks when ever I hear u say facts. It sinks even deeper when e truth comes out from ur mouth..

2011-08-25T08:43:00.000-07:00

<3 SUPERDUPERDUMBPIGGY

<3 POOHPOOH!!

<3 DALEDALE!!

<3 CHIPCHIP!!

<3 SLEEPING POOH!!

<3 BABY!!

<3 KORKOR!!

<3 SCRUMPSCRUMP!!

<3 BIG KORKOR!!

<3 DUMBDUMB!!

<3 DUMBO!!

<3 PIGLET!!

<3 SAILOR POOH!!

<3 DOREAMON BF!!

ALL THIS SHALL BE E PAST!!!!

2011-08-23T07:47:00.000-07:00

it seems like this is e only place where i can write what ever things i wan n all my sorrows n nobody wouldn't have know.

Guess im blogging again.. i don't know why.

when ever i start blogging mean there is things inside me that im hiding from people around me!

i dont know why i just didn't wan to say it out.

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!

after reading friend post in facebook..

it hits me..

how could i forget someone that i have been loving for a year and after months i fall for someone else..

e ans inside me is that within this year e last few months i have already prepared to get thrown away..

everybody abandon me anyway..

everybody leaves me..

i dont know what i did but yes im having all this shit!!

i seriously don't know what your thinking about..

ever since den we didn't contact neither we have talk to each other..

i guess is e best way for both of us..

累了照慣例努力清醒著
也照慣例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在夢中不聽話的就停止了

聽著呼吸像浪潮拍動著
越美麗越讓我忐忑
我還能珍惜什麼
如果我連自己的脈搏都難掌握

如果我變成回憶退出了這場生命
留下你錯愕哭泣
我冰冷身體擁抱不了你
想到我讓深愛的你人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己如此狠心

如果我變成回憶終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮
蹣跚牽著你看晚霞落盡
漫長時光總有一天你會傷心痊癒
若有人可以讓他陪你我不怪你

快樂什麼時候會結束呢
哪一刻是最後一刻
想把你緊緊抱著
可知你是我生命中的最捨不得

如果我變成回憶退出了這場生命
留下你錯愕哭泣
我冰冷身體擁抱不了你
想到我讓深愛的你人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己如此狠心

如果我變成回憶終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮
蹣跚牽著你看晚霞落盡
漫長時光總有一天你會傷心痊癒
若有人可以讓他陪你

如果我變成回憶最怕我太不爭氣
頑固的賴在空氣霸佔你心裡每一寸縫隙
原來依然愛我的你痛苦承受失去
這樣不公平請你盡力把我忘記

連你都會殘忍隔絕
我的心能要誰了解
眼中燭光搖晃著熄滅
為何把我推向邊緣
被砸壞了的一切
卡住了我讓我無法往前

囚禁在距離笑聲最遠的房間
單獨隔離寂寞地盤旋

全世界都停了電全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面被貼上黑夜
我吶喊思念卻沒人聽見
絕望到極點剩的是疲倦
全世界都停了電全世界白雪滿天
才發覺在我心間有回憶碎片
一作夢翻身就刺痛流血
我卷著身體縮成一個圈像一個句點

連你都會殘忍隔絕
我的心能要誰了解
眼中燭光搖晃著熄滅
為何把我推向邊緣
被砸壞了的一切
卡住了我讓我無法往前

囚禁在距離笑聲最遠的房間
單獨隔離寂寞地盤旋

全世界都停了電全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面被貼上黑夜
我吶喊思念卻沒人聽見
絕望到極點剩的是疲倦
全世界都停了電全世界白雪滿天
才發覺在我心間有回憶碎片
一作夢翻身就刺痛流血
我卷著身體縮成一個圈像一個句點

2011-07-10T11:20:00.001-07:00

我会把你藏在心里最深的那一层!!!!!

2011-06-19T10:51:00.001-07:00

Good bye!!
Leaving this world..
wouldn't be found..

2011-06-12T11:58:00.001-07:00

Would u get out of my heart already?? I noe i have shift some where else in urs.. I'm no longer in there anymore.. Never thought it was so pain.. Have u read e bottle of heart I gave u?? I bet u didn't.. If u would have read it will u be diff?? Probably is just me that is still wanting to noe

2011-06-12T11:53:00.001-07:00

Thought family would support me n encourage me.. But it seems to be e other way round now.. Y?? I thought ur said that ur will support me dont matter wat?? Den wat is tis?? When u need my help I'm there buy when I need urs?? My heart really hurts a lot.. I'm no longer a kid!!! I noe wat I'm doing!!! All I need was support n encouragement from ur!!!

2011-06-12T11:50:00.001-07:00

I might not just accept u that fast.. I just don't feel anything.. Peace was not in me suddenly.. I have to go to god for peace.. Still finding e peace in me!! Pls dear devil!! Will u just leave me n have peace come in?? Ur taking up too much space for too long a period.. Now get out!!!!

2011-06-12T11:46:00.001-07:00

I just need someone to sit down n listen to me.. Izzit that hard to find someone who is willing to buy health product?? I just need to sell 3!! Is that hard??

2011-06-12T11:44:00.001-07:00

At times I thought I would have forgotten u.. But flash backs just wouldn't stop making me missing u.. I don't noe wat I have done

2011-05-24T19:18:00.001-07:00

Thought I was forgetting u.. E same night i said this u appear in my dreams.. Wat does tis mean den??

2011-05-24T10:18:00.001-07:00

You said that you love me FOREVER..
I never knew that FOREVER had an EXPIRATION DATE!!!

2011-05-24T10:12:00.001-07:00

Is ur lost to let me go.. :)

2011-05-24T10:11:00.001-07:00

Worst thing to do in life is to mess with gals who live u too much!!! U might regret for life!!!

Over

2011-05-24T10:10:00.003-07:00

Forgetting u already.. Not knowing who r u to me anymore.. Continuing with my life feeling better with out u I'm fine.. More guys better r waiting for me.. Done with u!!

Over

2011-05-24T10:10:00.001-07:00

Forgetting u already.. Not knowing who r u to me anymore.. Continuing with my life feeling better with out u I'm fine.. More guys better r waiting for me.. Done with u!!

2011-05-19T03:43:00.001-07:00

Didn't expect to see u today.. E moment I saw u I feel like hugging u n cry.. I seriously still don't understand y?? I can't put down totally.. Too long too many things.. Still couldn't stop thinking.. :'(

2011-05-14T01:10:00.000-07:00

Ohh I wanna let you know
That I'll always love you baby

Sometimes I think about
Everything that we've been through
And I pray that you would just open your eyes
I love you and I need you
So please don't throw our love away

Since the day you and I snuck away to be alone
I knew from that night something special went on
It must've been the first kiss
You told me that nobody else in the world made you feel this
I felt the same way too but nothing stays the same
I'm sorry for the tears I'm sorry for the pain
You were the one that I'd always made things right
I promise you this though you got a friend for life
Maybe one day we can try it again
And maybe things can be a little different
So lets just kiss and say goodbye
'cause I really cant stand the pain of seeing you cry

I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me

All that is mine is yours that's what I said
Treat you with love and respect in everyway
You wanted I gave you need me I was there
Now you treat like if I'm not here
I love you and I need you don't wanna let go
If you want somebody else please let me know
Can't take it no more I feel I'm dying inside
Is this the price I pay for handing you my life?
I know I'm not perfect but I truly cared

So when you wake up one morning and I'm not there
Just remember I loved you it will never be the same
Gave you everything and you threw it all away

I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me

I gave you my good and my bad
My heart and my soul,
My trust my money my time,
What more can you ask from a man
Even when times were hard
I held out my arms and held you
Even excepted you though whatever weather
But now I feel it we're at the end of the rope
Whatever we had now I gotta let go
Nights like this I wish raindrops would fall
To cover my tears
Wishing I could replace all those wasted years
Of loving someone who couldn't love you back
And now again I gotta start from scratch
But I know I've given you my everything

I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me

2011-05-03T10:33:00.001-07:00

The day I get my phone 4 white is oso e day I was super heart broken n sad.. I was super happy in e morning but damn sad in e afternoon.. We really broke up le.. Though. I noe e ans.. I'm still not believing it Is true.. I really don't wan to break up.. It took me so much to get into Tis r/s n last it so long n tis is e ending?? No I don't wan!!!! U bian xin.. I didn't change from e start.. I'm staring to think everything u said was a lie.. I though I was strong enough to accept it.. But I was wrong.. I crash over like an earthquake.. I've fallen too deep to get bak up.. I don't noe wat to do with my heart n feelings now.. My tears just wouldn't stop flowing..

Today had a farewell gathering for my sec frends who r going in army already n like tml they r going in Liao.. Hahahah.. Had a lot of fun.. When to eat Aston den after that when to a nearby pub to chill.. Is damn shoik lahx.. The drink mix until so nice n got feel lahx.. Didn't drunk but high.. But after that headache Cos not enough slp.. So going to have another gathering like tat again.. Is super refreshing n relax.. Plus so long all of us nv sit down n go out tgt..

2011-04-23T03:20:00.000-07:00

Just when for a midnight movie n its HORROR!!

i watch scream 4!!!!!!

quite scary lahx.. but e gal is so sick lo..

omg!!!!!! but some how is funny too..

hahahahahahaha...

feel so shiok..

super long nv go out late at night watch movie n all..

shall do it again..

n e next time round go drinking..

hahahaha..

fun time always fly fast..

your still e only wan who noe wat my reaction really means..

oyasumi.. :D

2011-04-22T02:25:00.000-07:00

FEELING SUPER EMO WHEN EVER IM TAKING Bus.. Y?? SITTING IN 1 CORNER HEARING MP3 MAKE ME FEEL LIKE TEARING Up.. Y DONT ME TEARS EVER DRIES Up?? WAT IS Tis?? I DESERVE It?? SERIOUSLY WAT'S GOING ON IN IN LIFE MAN!!!?? E PAIN INSIDE IN HEART NEVER Leaves.. THEY ALWAYS MULTIPLE Up.. DOES ALL TIS SUPPOSE TO HAPPEN IN IN LIFE?? SERIOUSLY??!! CAN U TELL ME Y?? MAYBE I SHOULD JUST GIVE UP UP MINS SET OF WANTING TO NOE E REASON N ANS TO Everything.. I DONT BELIEVE ALL TIS HAPPENS FOR NO REASON.. N THERE IS NO WAY TO SOVLE It.. TJERE IS SURE TO BE A REASON OR A WAY TO SOVLE It.. ITS A MATTER TO ITS GOING TO REVEL A Not.. IT ALL HAS TO COME TO AN END EITHER WAY Rite?? NOT SURE AN WAT IM GOING TO DO Now.. MAYBE JUST GOING TO DRAIN OFF ALL TO TEARS THAT WERE STILL LEFT INSIDE.. N TRY TO MOVE ON WITH HAVING TO FIND OUT WAT IS E ?? IN ME.. I REALLY WAN TO TEXT U N ASK U BUT IT SEEMS LIKE MANY THING IS BOTHERING U Now.. N IT HE'D ME BAK FROM SENDING U E TEXT.. MAYBE ITS Fate.. ITS FATE THAT E ANS I WANTED TO NOE FROM U IS Obvious.. EVEN THOUGHT I DONT WAN TO NOE E Truth.. BUT I HAVE TO FACE IT ANY WAY.. ITS JUST GOING TO BE ANOTHER HEART BREAKING Ending.. EVERYTHING IS BAK TO SQUARE 1.. WONDERING HOW R DUMBDUMB THEY ALL??

2011-04-19T00:01:00.000-07:00

it has been more den a month e last time we contact each other..

it still doesnt feel real to me..

i really wan to noe y??

wat really happen tat day tat we r like tat??

u really nv miss me??

u really able to continue like tat??

u really able to stop contacting me totally??

seriously??

if its real have u ever seriously love me??

wat am i to u??

i still does miss u..

im still unable to keep chipchip daledale scrumpscrump n korkor inside my cupboard..

im still wearing n using things tat u brought for me..

i dont noe how am i going to forget u..

*tearing*

2011-04-01T13:06:00.000-07:00

Y IS EVERYTHING SEEMS TO BECOME MY FAULT NOW???

I DONT NOE WHERE HAVE I DONT WRONG!!!!

IF UR JUST WAITING FOR ME TO SAY SORRY 1ST I GUESS U WILL BE HAVING HARD TIME WAITING..

IF UR ANGRY JUST BECOS I MAKE U WAITED FOR 2 HR..

I THINK IS REDICULOUS..

2011-03-31T03:45:00.000-07:00

my tears nv stop flowing becos of u..

just now while i was talking to my frend ..

suddenly talk about me..

n ask me how's my r/s..

i say we didnt contact already..

n everything that happen..

some how she thinks that i should call/msg u 1st..

somehow if like my fault again..

izzit really through??

izzit really my fault??

what r u thinking about??

it has been 3 week since we last contact..

it feels so long but in actually fact..

it has only pass 3 weeks..

only 3 week n im like that already..

how am i going to last for more den my life..

i seriously dont noe wat to do..

will u even ans or reply any of my msgs n calls??

in fact i dont think ur even bothered about it..

i think ur quite happy thought..

maybe u noe another gal already..

do u really mean wat u said before??

probably my presence is just making everyone around sad..hurt..worry..

maybe my presence shouldnt have shown up in this world..

maybe i dont worth the love..

ppl should just ignore my presence..

maybe i should have gotten use to it..

gotten use to being ignore by ppl..

i was happy thou during ITE life..

but it was short..

i should have known it..

nth in my life nor my presence in life lasted everything happily..

everything in my life is short..

even if its short..

im still glad that i was happy before..

D':

2011-03-28T00:32:00.000-07:00

suddenly missing u so much..

how is this suppose to happen??

thou i really love u..

but this shouldn't be happening once all this started..

since i've made up my mind..

maybe i'm just cheating myself all this time..

telling myself NO I DONT LOVE YOU DONT THINK ABOUT U ANYMORE!!!!!!

i thought i would be able to smile faster..

thought i will be able to overcome faster..

but it seems that time is making it slow for me..

what should i do now??

i really don't noe how..

feeling hopeless..

everything's not right now..

guess i should go a place to thinking through properly n relax.. D':

2011-03-25T01:09:00.000-07:00

2PM - Without U

i'm gonna get stronger
right, it's better to be separated, anyways I knew at some point you and i
would have had this situtation, I definitely know you would have done this
instead of that it's better to be me right now
after I was in deep love I knew
I'm relieved I knew about this That's why I'm ok
I gave my all to you
I trusted you so I gave everything to you
You threw that away I gave you my everything that's why now...

I’m gonna be ok (Gonna be ok)
I’ll be ok (Gonna be ok)
baby without you, baby without you
without u more cooler more cooler
I'll stand I'll live

Listen, everything happesn for a reason, everything happesn for a reason,
you said this was the first time meeting a different guy
that doesn't even make sense, obviously what you said is gonna be proved wrong, so just turn around
It really hurts me to see you, I want to stop
Everyday I was being tricked, I didn't know what kind of person you were
Now I know, you don't know love that's why now...

I’m gonna be ok (Gonna be ok)
I’ll be ok (Gonna be ok)
baby without you, baby without you
without u more cooler more cooler
I'll stand I'll live

why did you do this to me why?
Seriously why did you do this to me made me cry
You threw away everything we posessed, was everything we did actually valuable?
the times we had together, the times we could've had together
aren't you even sad about it? do you not care? right now are you, are you ok without me?

I’m gonna be ok (Gonna be ok)
I’ll be ok (Gonna be ok)
baby without you, baby without you
without u more cooler more cooler
I'll stand I'll live

2011-03-24T19:49:00.000-07:00

sometime everything happens for a reason..

but sometimes this reason happen to often that it hurts..

repeated reason just makes e wound deeper n deeper..

so deep that it cos a very deep scar..

too obvious to hide it..

doesn't matter if laugher covers it up its still there..

suddenly thinking bak things that have happen this few months..

probably this happen because of me..

becos of my stubbornness..

maybe there is still no one that can take my stubbornness yet..

maybe is really my problem that causes all this unhappy moments..

its always my stubbornness that cause more ppl unhappy..

i always use my stubbornness to change for other ppl unhappiness..

guess u were unhappy with me..

that we are like that..

a lot people ask me am i really able to be who am i now??

will i be able to forget u..??

will i be able to be happy again..??

seriously i don't know all this ans..

maybe from e start i shouldn't have chosen this..

i should have know whats e ending..

yet i still dig my own grave..

n drag down innocent people in..

i should have been stronger to lock everyone OUT!!!

but i didn't..

my heart stop me from doing it..

my heart didn't wan me to lock out everybody..

i should have build it stronger..

i dont feel i'm alive...

felt so dead inside..

not able to feel my heartbeat..

not able to feel what i'm thinking..

DONT KNOW WHO AM I NOW!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-03-24T10:11:00.000-07:00

Forever Or Never - SHINee

I'm nervous as to what those firmly shut lips are going to say and what you are thinking
Hot, hot, hot run
Thump, thump, thump, hide
My heart only wants you
(JH) If you are wavering because my love is so young
It is

My Love Forever
If you ask again: forever
How much more do I have to yell for you to
(ah ah ah ah) Understand?
(ah ah ah ah) Understand?

If I was going to easily change, never
I wouldn't even begin
No matter what anyone else says for me there is only one
Forever or Never

I hate your silences that make even your breath deafening
I'm scared
I I I love you
I I I need you
Why are you acting like you don't know my love?
Do you still not believe my love?
Are you still wavering?
Wavering

My Love Forever
If you ask again: forever
How much more do I have to yell for you to
(ah ah ah ah) Understand?
(ah ah ah ah) Understand?

If I was going to easily change, never
I wouldn't even begin
No matter what anyone else says for me there is only one
Forever or Never

For my love! For My love!
For My Love!
It's Forever, forever

Yo! It's forever
At anytime my love is for you
Exclusively for you
Holding each other's hands
Believing that we will never waver
Your unwavering feelings

My Love Forever
Until the end, forever
How else can I show you so you will
(ah ah ah ah) Understand?
(ah ah ah ah) Understand?

If it wasn't you, never.
Even if my world ends, never
This is my decision
Forever or Never

My love My Love,
until the end, until the end
Forever or Never

Forever or Never
Forever or Never

2011-03-21T20:20:00.000-07:00

i might just go study private..

better den nth rite..

shorten e stress in me!!!

everything have start to tumble down in my life!!!!

nth is going the way i wanted it to be..

everything should be going as i plan it was..

but now everything is a MESS!!!!!!!!

2011-03-21T20:16:00.000-07:00

SO FKING STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Y DONT THEY THINK HOW WE FEEL??????

NOW STUDYS N LAST TIME STUDYS IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT STORY!!!!!!!!!

2011-03-19T10:09:00.000-07:00

more den a week has pass..

day by day..

isnt e ans clear enough??

i think is really clear..

lucky i didnt think much..

hahahahha.....

BUT AGAIN!!!!!!!

BUT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

op is nearer n nearer...

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

damn it..

im soooooooo scared man.......

praying super hard now!!!!!!!!

*pray**pray**pray**pray**pray**pray**pray**pray**pray**pray**pray*

2011-03-14T23:06:00.000-07:00

THANKS FOR TOTALLY TAKING AWAY SMILES TAT WERE LEFT!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-03-14T23:02:00.000-07:00

this is how ii feel until now!!!!!!

i was very happy..

i nv once feel like cry..

not until when everything start to change bit by bit..

i started to feel sad is cos..

u said things that make me happy but didnt come true after that..

once twice i was still okay..

but after that it happens too much that i was super disappointed..

n that i think twice after hearing wat u say..

thinking if i say still trust wat u say n it will come true..

but once again it didnt..

n that i told myself its clear that something is not right..

i feel that ur blocking me out..

i dont feel that i was needed..

i felt like im just a soft toy..

always there but only when ur sad or bored den u play with it..

this was wat i feel..

alright inside but crying inside..

i have no idea y ur like tat now..

seriously wat happen on that day that ur able to not contact me at all for so many days!!!!!!!!

i told myself maybe ur telling me to leave..

alright i'll leave..

thou i seems okay..

but im not!!!!

i told myself its okay.. its alright..

its just another hard times..

it has always been like that..

nth new..

but my heart dont lie..

my tears nv work well with me everytime..

its always flowing out of my eyes..

my heart just wouldnt stop bleeding..

this is just double the impact i get..

im already very sad cos im afraid of drawing blood tml and op next week..

n all i get was this..

thanks for ur contribution..

making things worst for me..

THANKS SO MUCH!!!!!!!!

2011-03-12T23:15:00.000-08:00

2days has pass.. tml will be the last day..

n i'll noe wat u mean already..

this has nv happen..

2011-03-11T21:32:00.000-08:00

somehow ytd we some sort if like cold war..

i have no idea y..

i was angry cos u show me attitude at mrt platform..

i didnt purposely make u alone..

i oso didnt noe ando work place cannot so many ppl there..

if ur really unhappy tell me..

i was den super piss off when u say ur going hm!!!!!

since we have not contact for 24hr..

so this is wat u wan..

fine..

i'll folo as it is..

2011-03-05T00:55:00.000-08:00

when to SGH ytd morning..

when to see e report..

doctor say is quite big..

so need take it out n check..

my heart was super scared..

i dont wan to go for op..

on e 15 mar need go for blood test n maybe x-tray..

on e 22 mar is op day..

everything is in e morning..

y does everything happens on thursday..

i really hate..

y am i always sick..

nv 1 year im alright..

since i was born..

y am i so weak???

im suppose to be healthier in 2011..

but end up this happening..

i couldnt slp well..

nightmare nv stop hunting my mind down..

my heart cant take it..

too many things happens..

too much for me to take it..

too many stones are inside my heart..

their falling apart every sec, every min, every hour, every year, everytime when im growing..

y is this happening to me??

is izzit cos ppl around me did evil things n i get e revenge??

2011-02-27T00:21:00.000-08:00

WTF did i do to get treated like this!!!!!!!

WTH is this.. tis is not i wan!!!!!!

u get it!!!!!!!

GET IT INTO YOUR HEAD!!!!!!!!

ALL I WANT IS SIMPLE LIFE!!!!!!

CANT U JUST GIVE ME THAT!!!!!!

WHATS THE MATTER WITH U!!!!!!

DONT REGRET WHEN IM GONE!!

CAUSE THIS IS WAT U MAKE ME TO DECIDE!!!

2011-02-24T20:47:00.000-08:00

dont come and show me attitude i tell u!!!!!

i dont give a damn..

i dont care who u r..

once i make me firer up i dont give u any chance!!!!!!

2011-02-14T23:26:00.000-08:00

today was the 1st day of work..

feel a bit nervous wondering how r e people there like n how e place look like..

but after i reach e place i wasn't tat curious anymore..

the people there friendly n always have food going around the office..

somehow it does look like a office area..

hahahaha.. don't know how to describe it..

time past very fast today..

quite like the thing tat i was doing although is a bit messy..

but is something new that i learn..

hahahahaha..

well i wasn't happy for e past few days..

not until now.. so i occupied myself with things e whole day..

without thinking anything except food, bed n work..

after thinking what i did wasn't that bad at all..

nth to bother about..

relax..

but after work go n have dinner is totally shit!!!

emotional drop half down..

super !@#$%^&*()@#$%^@#$%!@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!

not going to do anything anymore..

numbing myself..

building metal from now on..

___

[ME]

2011-02-10T00:00:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!!

we have gone through many up n down..

hope we will love each other more..

understand each other more..

this love will go on all e way..

i love you hubby..

:DD

how long more can i smile like this?? :DD

smile until i cant close my mouth even 1 min...

can i continue smiling like this all e way..

or will it be taken away??

2011-01-29T14:50:00.000-08:00

TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED & NEGLECTED!!!!

wat e hell is tis.. i dont think we can make it longer anymore..

u dont even noe y im like tis..

dont even bother to ask me u im like tis..

wat is tis..

WTF!!!

2011-01-16T01:24:00.000-08:00

what ever i say i dont mean it at all..

when i say i was okay, i wasnt alright.. im always worrying about u..

when i say im happy, im actually dying inside..

when i say i wasnt thinking about u anymore, im dying to see u..

when i say i wan to leave u, i wan to keep u most by my side..

when i say i dont care about u anymore, i wan u to care more about me..

when i say i dont wan to know wat u where doing, i wan u to know wat im doing..

bb.. do u know all this??

do u know wat im thinking??

do u know war i really wan??

do u know how am i feeling??

do u know how much tears have i drip??

2011-01-16T00:58:00.000-08:00

does people lie really because they really really love them??

does people lie cos they don't the person they love e most to get hurt??

does people lie cos they wan to protect them??

does people lie cos they don't wan them to know e hurtful truth??

does people lie cos there is reason behind it??

does people lie cos they wan to keep a person image perfectly inside them??

does people lie cos they wan them to live happily??

does people lie cos they don't wan to take away the smile from them??

DOES ALL THIS LIES REALLY HELP??

DO THEY REALLY THINK THAT THIS LIES REALLY MAKE THEM HAPPIER??

DO THEY KNOW THAT ONCE THE PERSON KNOW THAT ALL THIS WAS A LIE THE OUTCOME WILL BE THE MOST HURTFUL AND PAINFUL MOMENT..

WHEN THE PERSON KNOW THAT ALL THIS WAS A LIE ,

WHEN THE PERSON COME TO IT'S SENSE,

THE PERSON WILL LOSE ALL THE TRUST THAT ACCUMULATED ALL THE WHILE..

THE PERSON MIGHT JUST NOT BE ABLE TO BELIEVE ANYBODY ANYMORE..

OR EVEN HAVING DIFFICULTIES TRUSTING PEOPLE..

2011-01-13T00:03:00.000-08:00

tis afternoon when out to taka to apply for job there..

after applying walk to plaza with yong they all..

wanted to watch but dont have any show tat e timing is rite..

so we when to arcade to play game while waiting for yuan to come n meet us..

after tat they when to smoke after awhile they go shopping den decided to go play lan..

i didnt play cos i was too tired.. i sit at e side.. but while watching them play i fall a slp..

hahaha.. but after a short nap i was more awake.. not so tired..

after they play finish game den i went hm..

it was still drizzling.. i took bus 7 hm.. e bus was super cold..

went hm for dinner too.. so yummy.. popo cook de food e best.. :D

i wan to eat always!!! hahahahahha...

:'( after watching e show im sad now..

y does ppl can have a proper family i dont have??

i wan to have a happy life like all kids have when they were young..

y i cant have tis type of life???

every nite my emotional just haunts me down with sadness..

just how much tears do i have to drop in order to let it dry up???!!!!

im really sick of all tis thing in my life!!!!

sometimes i really dont feel like living in tis world anymore..

i always blame mummy for giving birth to me..

blame daddy for leaving us..

blame daddy for making mummy heart broken..

blame daddy for making her having hard time bringing us up..

blame daddy for making mummy lost her smile, happiness!!!

i blame everything on HIM!!!!

I WILL NEVER FORGIVE HIM!!!

NEVER NEVER NEVER!!!!!

2011-01-11T21:09:00.000-08:00

so many days nv blog again.. hahaha.. too lazy liao..

i should change to have a habit to blog..

at least i will feel better after i blog..

at least i get to vent out all my emotional out inside here..

doesnt matter whether im sad, happy or angry.

i can throw them away here..

n crying in reality..

tis few days i have been going out almost everyday..

ytd n today when bak to sch in e morning..

after tat i was super tired.. but after a short nap.. im more awake..

but blur blur.. hahaha..

i finally when to watch movie again.. hahahahahaha..

watch gui ye siao.. quite funny.. but got some part i kana shock by e sound..

every since dec last year.. this few days it has been raining none stop..

n e weather super cold.. luckily i didnt get sick from all tis bad weather..

must really stay healthy tis year onwards.. cannot sick anymore..

HEALTHY HEALTHY HEALTHY!!!!

as usual i was so clumsy tat i injured myself when i was getting off e stage..

got a scratch on my knee.. super pain.. e stupid stage floor super super rough.. like e road..

lucky not very bad.. no blood come out..

next time i should be more careful..

so jialet keep injured myself.. hehehehehe.. :P

guess i going to slp soon today.. super duper tired..

hopefully i get enough slp tis time round..

n go look for a job..

n go enroll.. hahahaha..

hope i dont lazy again!!! :D

2010-12-10T21:00:00.000-08:00

when to catch a movie just now..
watch my fav show repunzel!!!
hahahaha... super nice show..
so funny n nice.. :D
the best thing is watch with bb.. :D
den after tat went to arcade to play.. super funny.. hahaha..
den went hm at about 7plus n eat dinner downstair..
after dinner went to ntuc to buy milk to drink..
suddenly got e feeling to drink milk.. hahahaha..
den bb went to buy dinner hm for his mum..

2010-12-10T12:00:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!!!!!! :DD

2010-12-09T21:40:00.000-08:00

finally exams are over..
super happy after exams.. going out everyday.. go out enjoy live..

today suppose go yoga but mummy decided to go have dinner with me instead..
so we head down to 313 & decided to eat flying chillies..
the food was not bad.. but i wasnt really hungry..
so i eat abit.. after that go walk walk with mummy awhile den go hm already..
cos mummy have a long journey hm.. she takes about an hr to reach hm..
but i reach hm super fast.. i think about 10 - 15 mins..
super happy today until when i was walking hm alone..
i suddenly feel moody n sad.. looking at e sky.. tonite sky feels super dark..
suddenly decided to go up to e playground tat i promise myself not to go anymore..
but when i reach.. there was people there.. maybe is fate tat i really have to stop thinking about that place when im sad.. stop seeing e sky tat i use to be seeing.. stop all sad feelings for now.. in another 2hr 20mins will be my birthday n im suppose to be happy about it.. but im feeling super sad now.. crying.. dont noe wat to do.. lose all my smile just in a split of sec.. how can a person feeling change so fast.. is tis wat emotional god created?? i dont think so.. i think Satan is taking control over my emotions.. it shouldnt be tis way.. i use to be a super happy gal with alot of happiness in life.. but things tents to happen in life tat changes everything.. D':

2010-11-27T23:38:00.000-08:00

this morning went for hot yoga again..
hahahaha.. i woke up at like 830am..
miracle tat i can wake up tat early n i woke up quite fast oso..
during sch days i oso don't have wake up so fast..
hahahhaha.. maybe cos scared late den kana scold by my aunt..
but in end we also a bit late..
today class not as tired as Thursday.. Thursday class is really super tired..
but i think i cant come for morning class yoga.. is to sleepy to exercise..
hahahahahaha.. nearly sleep in class.. :D

after tat went to my aunt hse to bath..
den went over to my great-grandmother hse to drink 1 bowl of my fav soup n fruit salad.. super yummy.. but after that i went out already..

meet rong at city hall..
den we go suntec walk walk.. cos she wants to buy things..
went i reach city hall e time went i see her im like..
wa u wear until so nice for?? n i wear tank top, shorts n slipper.. hahahaha..
she oso say y u wear until so anyhow..
den i said cos i come from yoga n my aunt hse don't have my clothe..
she today really buy a lot of things.. i only but 1 FBT shirt..
went to eat subway for lunch.. den we were talking talking den suddenly i rmb my sis say she wan to make dumping.. so i called her n ask her.. den ask rong it she wants a not.. den she say she don't mind.. so i decide to make.. after lunch went to buy her things already den walk to carrfour to buy the ingredients after walk to mrt go my hse n make dinner..
reach hm already put down all my things den start making dumping already..
went making the time super funny.. e dumping start to come out in all diff size n shapes..
n all diff ingredient inside.. hahahahahaha.. :D
is ur lucky to eat whats inside it..
after finish making we take n fry it..
my sis was suppose to fry but she scared of oil..
so end up rong help her fry.. cos i say i scared my sis burn up my whole kitchen.. :D hahahaha..
it was a successful dinner dumping anyway.. hahaha.. but e amount of oil use is scary..
hahahahaha.. :D

2010-11-26T21:14:00.000-08:00

ahh!!! busy with final project touch up.. didnt have time to blog..
hmm.. ytd i went for hot yoga after sch with mummy n aunt..
super funny went i start doing yoga.. hahahahahahaha..
the room is really very hot.. before i the class could start i already start perspire like i get caught in a heavy rain like tat.. den mummy n my aunt all start laughing..
after 30mins of class i totally no energy.. got 1 moment of the yoga class the time my leg super tired den no strength den i give knee on the floor n drop dead.. mummy n my aunt all laughing away..

today mummy called popo and ask about smth or wat den she oso told her wat happen during yoga ytd.. den popo ask me when i wake up from my slp.. n i was smilling away.. cos is just too funny.. but hot yoga is so cool.. i nv perspire sp much in my life.. but after yoga my back so pain.. but is very shiok to stretch.. i dont feel so tired anymore due to lack of sleep the past few days..
i thought i will have aches here n there.. but surprisingly i dont have any aches at all except my back.. instead i feel super refresh.. no tiredness feel..

when i reach sch today i was late.. i thought there will be alot ppl in class already but everybody is late including my teacher.. i thought yeah i can burn n hand up my project already.. but suddenly my teacher tell us say there is going to be a fire drill rehearsal.. den im like wth waste time only lo.. after tat 30mins ltr the bell start ringing already.. n im was about to burn my project into CD already lo.. super angry.. den nvm.. make us walk on grass n its so muddy.. make my monkey shoe so dirty n i have to wash it!!! make me dont have n choice but to stay in sch till 1plus where i already on my way hm la!!!

2010-11-23T22:04:00.000-08:00

Ooopps didnt blog since friday..
hahahaha.. busy watching show n last min study for class test..
class test turn out to be super easy.. but i cant pass full marks cos i got some of it wrong cos i didnt have enough slp for a week n am too tired to get anything inside my head..
suppose to go yoga ytd but my last min cancel cos she wan to go out..
now kana abandon by her.. hahahahah..

lucky this morning i got up in time.. n manage to get up at 7am n get ready by 740am..
hahahaha.. i thought i wasnt able to get up.. n will be late for morning class test..
lucky i wasnt.. so happy.. but im SUPER TIRED!!!
today i really make myself too tired until i cannot take it..
near knock out while going hm..
totally knock out in e bus on e way hm..
n i was sleeping so soundly tat i knock my head at e window..
it was a super hard wan cos i think the bus is shaking too..
it totally shock me n i wake up.. but went bak to slp damn fast..
n still didnt wan to wake up went i reach my stop..
lucky damian call me wake up.. if not i think im going to miss my stop again.. n i think i will sit all e way till toa payoh interchange.. if tat happens my card money sure all fly fly..
after reach hm change out give grandma throw inside machine n wash den go take my dinner n eat.. today's dinner is bee hoon n green bean soup..
todays beehoon super wet nice to eat.. but abit hard to scoop.. n there is alot of mushroom inside.. i scoop all e mushroom n eat.. muhahahahahahaha...
but todays green bean soup very sweet.. end up drinking 1 bowl only.. i thought maybe i can drink more.. but is too sweet already so didnt wan to drink anymore..

after dinner watch SHINee.. laugh until nearly get stomach cramp..
their just so cute n funny n stupid.. hahahaha..
sry ARASHI i still love ur but ur show n all are very hard to find..
their show n all are easier to find.. but i still watch ur show..
LOVE SHINee & ARASHI!!!! <3

fall aslp while my sis was bathing n was actually suppose to wait for her to come out n watch some more show n all.. but in e end i was too tired n slp super soundly.. den she didnt wake me up.. just keep playing SHINee songs to hear.. hahahaha.. n went she talk to me i didnt reply her.. hahahahahahahaha... no energy to reply her.. <3

after sleeping for about 45 mins of power sleep.. im quite awake now.. but still feel like sleeping..
tiredness have gone away from my body yet.. hope after tis week i manage to get enough of sleep n woundnt be so tired.. n manage to do thing n clear of mind.. :)

2010-11-19T10:25:00.000-08:00

woke up at 745am today..
i thought i will be able to make it leaving hse at 830..
but i didnt.. asusual im late.. i leave at about 840..
n there wasnt any bus.. end up taking bus at like 850-9..
took 31 in e end.. by e time i reach sch is like about 10am..
today super alot of teacher catching people without landyard..
lucky i did bring mine.. now a days teachers in sch is like just too free ya..

den went to coop to buy milk n drink..
asusual the lift is full of people.. so i have to climb e stairs..
leg so tired.. take it as morning exercise..
hahahahahhaha....

lucky i wasnt late for the thing..
they are still in class..
went i reach class i realise junwen is not in class n he didnt pick up his phone.. hiax.. i cannot do anything again.. hope he come late.. or send me via email or msn..
guess today im very free again.. going to fb till sch ends bahx.. or maybe youtube.. or msn.. hehehehehehe.. :D

super slack in sch now.. dont noe y.. maybe tats e reason i always dont feel like coming sch.. cos is no diff staying at hm.. i oso do e same thing except tat i can play with my doggy(sister) at hm.. hahahahahahahahahahaha.. :D

2010-11-17T22:40:00.000-08:00

tis morning woke up by yuan at 1025am!!!!
when i can slp like another 5-10 more mins lahx..
make me wake up.. idiot.. hahahaha.. jk..
went to bath after tat.. den use com abit..
den dry hair den dress up n leave hse already..
den went i reach downstair he tell me all late..
xian might not be able to make it..
den im like wa liao u make me so early wake up for???
but im joking.. :)
den call xian den she nv pick up due to some reason..
den i said forget it let's go eat..
instead of wasting time calling n stay at e same place for nth..
so when to take train n go eat pasta..
by e time we eat finish we already miss e show by like 10mins already..
den still need queue for refund ticket n all..
we miss about 30mins of the show..
but i was okay with it..
after watching the show yuan went to play fish awhile den go hm liao..
cos keep losing money..
after tat went to take bus hm cos it's raining den i didnt wan to get wet went reach my hse station.. after getting down from the bus went to mini mart to buy ICE CREAM!!!!
always craving for ICE CREAM man!!!! dont noe y.. hahahah..

had a nice funny dinner just now.. my grandmother COOKED!!! i had my fav soup egg veg n meat!!!! I FINISH EVERYTHING!!!! den so full.. but had alot fun during dinner.. hahahahaha.. :D

2010-11-16T22:57:00.000-08:00

rainy day..
makes me stay's at hm..
i didnt go sch today..
hiax.. i oso dont noe wat's wrong with me..
dont feel like doing anything..
suddenly feels sad.. i have no idea y..
but watching HELLO BABY makes me feel abit happier..
cos the baby is so cute.. n u see shinee act as father's so funny..
and have their cute, funny n diff side..

hmm.. i had mee shua for dinner.. my grandmother cook de so yummy.. :D

but now watching death gal.. cos there is nth for me to watch already..
n still waiting for my frend to send me e proposal..
hopefully she can send me asap.. and i can put in e pic once the print screen of the animation is done.. and the proposal for world skill is done!!! den the only thing i will worry n have to study is for EES.. and having exam on 7dec for tat.. stress!!! so scared for tat.. hopefully i can pass very well.. dont have to worry anything.. :)

2010-11-15T23:10:00.000-08:00

hahahahaha.. ytd was a happy day manage to go to mediacorp and see live show..
the show tat i watch was starsearch 2010.. all the fans are crazy man.. they can really scream their lungs out.. and put alot effort in doing the poster and all.. tis is my 1st time going tis type of things.. and also 印象深刻.. i hope to go to the finals!! and enjoy tis feelings again!!

today after sch went to find bb wait for him after work den go my hse change clothes..
use awhile com den go out.. went to bugis to have dinner.. guess wat is my dinner???
tada!!! is steamboat!!!! quite yummy n nice.. but the place is super hot!!! no aircon at all!!!
after tat went to take MRT hm.. bb send me hm already den he go take bus hm.. now should be slping soundly in the bus dripping saliva.. hahahahhahahahaha.. :D
me bathed and nice smell watching shinee hello baby show.. while wait for my hair to dry!!!
hehehhee. byebye..

2010-11-13T22:57:00.000-08:00

woke up 12 noon today..
den when to bath den slowly use com, dry hair, change n all..
den went out to paya lebar accompany xian to make her pdl..
den after tat take circle line go plaza watch show..
the queue was damn long.. so scary..
wanted to watch unstoppable but ticket were sold fast n the seats werent good..
so watch RED instead..
its a nice n funny show.. the way the guy talk n act..
after tat went to eat dinner 1st cos i was hungry..
after that went to play fish..
both xian n yuan wasted alot of money..
i was just sitting there watching them play..
n am like wa liao stop wasting money..
we can like go n eat nice dessert lahx..
hahahahhahaha.. :D
den went to but tickets for next wed harry potter show..
den go take mrt hm..
n now going to my sis room to disturb her n watch 娱乐百分百 (shinee)..
she is going to laugh like mad dog again!!!

2010-11-12T22:30:00.000-08:00

wat a fking bad day today!!!!
wait for bus super long today..
den nvm miss my stop some more..
make me have to walk back 2 bus stop, cross 1 big road n 2 traffic light..
walk until i damn hot n tired..
n make until my back pain again..
make me no choice but to go n take a nap rest my back..
hopefully it will be better..
but end up is more pain!!! wtf!!!
den wake up from slp eat dinner still need to hear a full load of letture..
fucking irritating.. make me lose my temper again!!!!

freaking disappointed again!!!!
y do i always have tis feeling??
y am i always disappointed??
i wants to disappear from this place again!!!!
i wan MIA!!!!
i dont noe y am i still leaving is this world.. :'(

2010-11-12T12:19:00.000-08:00

after talking in fb.. now feel horrible.. wat should i do??
am i happy?? tis isnt wat i wan?? i have no idea wat to do next.. nth seems to be correct..
everything goes wrong..

2010-11-12T11:18:00.000-08:00

Finally back to blogging..
it has been a long time since i blog from the last post..
quite lazy to blog actually..
but for now i think i will treat it as my dairy??
well i think i have alot of things to write..
but i dont noe where i shall start with..
guess i will start all over again..
fresh all over the last wan..

2010-01-17T14:32:00.000-08:00

Ytd i when to the playground that i have not been there ever since he left..

many things flash back..

all the things tat he have told me..

i told myself tat i would be able to forget him if i go bak to the playground the last time..

but would i be able to really forget HIM!! ??

i always think tat time really can be the healing but somehow it has proven me tat im wrong..

& wrong in many things 2..

maybe i should start being truthful to myself..

stop lying to myself abt e feelings in r/s..

2009-12-22T22:13:00.000-08:00

Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps over hurdles, leaps fences, penetrates walls to arrive at its destination full of hope.

Love is like drinking beer... Once you get too much of it, you begin to act stupid.

It's hard when u don't know what caused your sadness, but it's even harder when you know what makes u happy yet you can't do anything to have it

Love not because of who the person is, but because of who you are when you're with her/him.

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes, it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

It's not wrong to give it all for love; it's not wrong to love a person so much. Sometimes, the only thing wrong is the person you chose to love..

Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again. Skinned knees are easier to heal than broken hearts...

LOVE is IN SPITE of , not BECAUSE of.

somehow i find all this to be quite true..

and all this this thing is like happening on me to often..

which i dont thing is a good thing..

i hate all this thing to happen..

y is loving someone so difficult..??

y can loving someone be much more easier..??

loving pet somehow is much better..

this few days i didnt think of him le izzit a good thing or not??

mayb is a good thing.. but wats make me not thinking so much??

found feelings on another person??

dont really wan to noe the reason..

maybe it will just hurt me more again..

somehow i just keep hurting myself more n more each time i think of him..

or something happen.. and somehow it will just link to him..

may i noe where is he??

how is he??

wat is he doing now??

wat is he thinking about..??

WHERE THE HELL ON EARTH IS HE AT??

I JUST WAN TO SEE HIM 1 MORE TIME.. TO FIND OUT THE TRUTH..

I HAVE TOO MANY THINGS THAT I WAN TO ASK HIM..

EVER SINCE HE LEFT.. REALLY REALLY TOO MANY THINGS TO ASK..

V where are u??

y dont u contact me..??

y did u ignore me..??

V can i just see u once more..??

and i really can let go le..

i promise.. i wouldnt hold back le..

i promise... i promise.. i promise...

2009-12-10T23:00:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me!!

today super happy..

i got so many surprise..

1st was yx they all cos i when www in the morning wif them..

they brought me a winnie the pooh pan dan.

so cute lo.. i didnt think that they will but this for me..

2nd is andorria they all..

they buy me the earring that i wanted to buy..

and is BLUE!!! i really like the earring..

i also didnt think that tis year they will give me tis..

tis year bday i really didnt realise i will have this birthday present frm them..

thank you!! everybody who celebrate my birthday wif me and wish me..

only 1 person didnt wish me.. and i think tat person will ever wish me..

anw i going to have my new phone soon..

baby change le lo.. she change her fav color i also change mine fav..

hahahahahaha...

so fan.. too many thinks going on in my live now..

i dont wan all this thing...

i just wan to go back to the start when i was unchange.. unhurt..

not like now.. too many hurt tat i have numb alrdy..

no more tears.. just sorrow.. too numb to feel anything..

wat should i do..?? baby ask me dont think le..

let time be the healing... but i think this wound is too deep to heal up properly..

i hate the healing up.. it hurts more den when it was just cut..

but now both cutting and healing feel are both hurting..

SO FAN!!! y am i like tat.. i keep tell my mummy.. y u give birth to me into this world..

i told many ppl... how i wish i wasnt in this world..

i have regreted too many things..

too many thing to sad over.. too many thing cannot start over le..

everything has become nth.. there is nth left..

its like a volcano just bao fa.. burns everything.. left the ashes..

my heart onli left wif broken pieces that cannot be fix back without leaving scars..

2009-12-03T22:30:00.000-08:00

Finally exams are over..

Yipee.. yahoo..

didnt blog tis few days again cos studying for exam..

so many things happen last few days..

suddenly so many things to fan..

suddenly miss him so badly..

suddenly i was told/realise things tat shouldnt be happening..

isnt normal ok..??

whats wrong wif me..??

why this things always happen to me??

i noe is gd but...

it wouldnt work out..

i noe myself..

trying my very best not to sheared a tears becos of him..

but i always end up crying the whole night..

why can a guy tat i nv comtact for so long affect me so much that i've change into another person..

even before my friends tell me that i change i already knew it..

i've change into a very scary person.. is a total of 360º change..

i have been told many time not to let him bother me anymore.. but everytime is getting worst..

the wound is getting bigger & deeper each time..

y doesnt it heal up.. y does it always split up.. is hurting too much..

too much tat everytime i cant take it anymore..

everytime i feel like killing myself..

2009-11-28T01:00:00.000-08:00

heyhey!! peepo!!

thrus when out to celebrate xian yong bday..

pei rong, ying xian, andy, decai, jack and hong yuan also when..

morning when for sch den afternoon when out to Kbox at paris ris..

they sing until so high..

den dinner eat just asia..

eatting the time also so high..

eat until i suddenly got a god son and husband..

pei rong is my god son and xian yong become my husband..

den nvm i have even 17 become so old.. GOT GOD SON!! and is older den me..

now i jump into any river also no use already..

den dont noe wat they say make peirong laugh den she spit out the water in her mouth again..

2nd time like tat again.. but this time i nv kana but my bag kana..

super funny la the whole day..

den after eating al go home..

decai and peirong go home tgt..

den xianyong, andy and chinkiat tgt..

me yingxian and jack tgt..

den yingxian bluff xianyong they all we take bus home..

but actually we follow them behind.. den in mrt we surprise them.. haha..

super lame.. but fun..

woke up 12plus cos grandfather scold den 2plus study until 7plus 8..

den study until use com awhile and back to study.. until now going to 1am le.. haix..

den going out again in the afternoon cos my aunt wan me go out 2..

hate exams are like that..

2009-11-25T01:52:00.000-08:00

back from not blogging.. somehow lazy to blog everyday..

only like to blog when i feel like it..

today's DMT phase test..

so sian.. so scared dont noe how to do..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAN YONG!!

ytd when out watch movie with yx, pr, ck & d.

when to watch "my gf is an agent"..

the show super funny.. cant stop laughing la..

after the show go find xy who was waiting for us outside the cinema..

he didnt watch the show wif us that y he's outside waiting..

and while he was waiting for us he was playing wif the escalator..

and ppl thought he was suspicion.. hahahahaha..

den when to eat dinner.. and u noe wat our dinner was dessert..

yx & d shared 2 bowl of dessert 1 hot and another cold..

me and xy shared red bean milk ice..

while eating we were talking a lot crap & funny thing..

den we were talking about something funny..

pr just suddenly burst into laughter wif her mouth fill wif dessert..

kana most of us la.. and cant stop laughing..

it's been long time since this happy thing happen..

very long nv laugh so happy le..

although still have unhappy thing inside me..

dont noe how long am i going to take to forget this thing..

even my teacher also came and talk to me..

cos i didnt study in his/her lesson well..

it was far from the 1st term the way i behave..

xian zai de wo is like..

at the top of a roller coast suddenly drop 180 degree down from the ride..

from heart beating fast to no heart beat..

i shouldnt have contact him..

maybe all this thing wouldnt happen..

maybe if i nv meet him..

this thing wouldnt happen..

but i tell my self in this world there are not many if or maybe..

all this are my fate.. but i didnt wan my fate to be sad..

or maybe is just not the rite time and ppl..

like wat my teacher told me..

it seems so hard to forget..

y is human being made like that..??

y cant human being like computer just reformat and everythings back to normal with a scar..??

why dont i get a chance to show him how much i love him.. but he can.. this isnt fair..

and i noe love isnt fair at all..

2009-10-13T21:25:00.000-07:00

歌名：放弃你

歌手：郭书瑶

我想我并不聪明

我没有你的机灵

在爱情变质之前我没反应

没察觉你的表情

你知道我不聪明

所以才选择放弃

放弃去猜你每一个反应

去猜你是否变心

放弃你放弃爱情

放弃了所有权利

连自己都知道这不公平

放弃你放弃自己

放弃了爱的权利

放弃你等於放弃我自己

Music~

你知道我不聪明

所以我选择放弃

放弃去猜该如何留住你

放弃了所有回忆

放弃你放弃爱情

放弃了所有权利

连自己都知道这不公平

放弃你放弃自己

放弃了爱的权利

放弃你等於放弃我自己

Music~

放弃你放弃爱情

放弃了所有权利

连自己都知道这不公平

放弃你放弃自己

放弃了爱的权利

放弃你等於放弃我自己

2009-10-05T20:44:00.000-07:00

Never Had A Dream Come True

Ooh...

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it could be now or neither been (or neither been)
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus
I never had a dream come true
Till that day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time
Amd tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or neither been (or neither been)
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
(Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)
You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget)
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

Chorus

A part of me will always be with you...

2009-08-31T01:11:00.000-07:00

Arashi (Ohno Satoshi) - Take Me Faraway

Ao no hikari ni yurenagara kaita tegami sotto kaze ni towa ni
Ochiru shizuku ga sukitooru you ni koe wa kitto kimi no moto e

Yuube mita sora wa shizuka ni moete taiyou to hoshi ga michibiku Story
Shinjita sekai wa iro o torimodosu ki ga tsukeba

Shirusu omoi o zenbu kanjiteru tsuyoku mune no oku ni
Tsutaetakute nando mo kaita kotoba dake wa
Tooku ukanderu seiza no you ni shunkan o egaiteru
Meguri meguri yuku seijaku ni toikaketa
Tell me why? Take me faraway

Hitomi tojireba azayaka ni sunda kioku sotto kaze ni towa ni
Awai kisetsu ni tsutsumareru you na kaori kitto kimi no moto e

Yuube tsutaeru tame ni musunda sen wa futatsu no Story
Donna ni sekai ga kawarihajimete mo kawaranai

Toki no kanaderu neiro shinjiteru fukaku mune ni hibiku
Tsutaetakute nando mo kimi no kokoro utsusu
Ai o tsunaideru saihate ni eien wa umareteku
Nagare nagare yuku senritsu ni toikaketa
Tell me why? Take me faraway

Doko ni ite mo donna toki de mo
Onaji sora miagete
Hikari atsume todoketai kara
Itsu made mo
Hakanai jounetsu no kage wasuretaku wa nai

Shirusu omoi o zenbu kanjiteru tsuyoku mune no oku ni
Tsutaetakute nando mo kaita kotoba dake wa
Tooku ukanderu seiza no you ni shunkan o egaiteru
Meguri meguri yuku seijaku ni toikaketa
Tell me why? Take me faraway

The letter I wrote wavering in blue light drifts quietly on the wind for eternity
Like the transparent liquid drops that fall, surely my voice will reach you

The sky I saw last night silently burns, the sun and stars lead the way in this story
The world I believed in regains its color, and before I know it

I can feel all the thoughts I wrote down, so strong in the depths of my heart
Only the words I wrote over and over, wanting to tell you,
Rise in the distance like a constellation, painting a moment
I asked the stillness circling all around me
Tell me why? Take me faraway

If I close my eyes, vividly clear memories drift quietly on the wind for eternity
This scent that envelops like the faint seasons will surely reach you

The lines I tied together last night to tell you are two stories
No matter how the world starts to change, they will remain the same

I believe in the musical tone played by time, echoing deep in my heart
Reflecting your heart over and over, wanting to tell you
At the end of the end where our love is joined together, eternity is born
I asked the melody flowing all around me
Tell me why? Take me faraway

No matter where, no matter when
I want to look up at the same sky
And gather the light to send to you
Now and forever
I don't want to forget the shadows of fleeting passion

I can feel all the thoughts I wrote down, so strong in the depths of my heart
Only the words I wrote over and over, wanting to tell you,
Rise in the distance like a constellation, painting a moment
I asked the stillness circling all around me
Tell me why? Take me faraway

2009-08-31T01:10:00.002-07:00

COOL & SOUL – Arashi

Arashi is cool tsukinukeru feels future
Arashi is soul mirai e no maku ga aku
Arashi is cool dakishimeru feels music
Arashi is soul nana nana...we

Gonin kanaderu no wa Hip hop
Ja naku maneshi katai you na Hip na Hop right?
Soshite maku ake dainishou
Nisete miyou nara sore wa dainigou
Sou mikai takuchi igai ni mo
Mikan no taiki wo saikidou (hi-ho!)

Orera ni mazu tsuite kina (yeah)
Kaze tachi ga kocchi muite kita (yeah)
Hoho ni kizuku to hora suiteki ga (yeah)
Tsuyoi kaze ga se kara fuite kita (yeah)

Suiteki ja nakunatteku zo
Soutei shina saiaku no keesu wo
Te kumou ga fukitobasu hodo no kyoufuu
(Michi to no souguu) (Kimi to no boufuuu)

Dakara ore ni shigamitsukinasai
Mamoritoosu yatsura da to iwakutsuki

"Arashi sagashi atari sawagashii
Sono susamajii sawagi masa ni arashi"
(That's right)

Yama kaze awase
Makiokoru to mina ooawate
Ima iawaseru kimi shiawase
Kono rekishi wo kousei ni katareru darou?

Amaterasu no koro kara
Orera wa chijou no haruka sotogawa

Gekai ni mukete hakidasu kotodama

Mou yamanai ame ga (yeah)
Nagaku tsuzuita kono yoru ga aketa (yeah)
Kimi ga wasuregachi no de areba (yeah)
Ichiichi kioku ni nokoru tane maku (yeah)

Sou orera ga aku made taito na paionia
Ya so cute nibansenji

Arashi is cool tsukinukeru feels future
Arashi is soul mirai e no maku ga aku

Taiyoukou ni yaburu kumo
"Koko" toka de naku "haruka mukou"
Maijuubyou chikazuku suroo
Miageru katachi tsune ni toujou
Seiki mireniamu mata ni kake
Norikoeru ni wa takai kabe
Nagai yoru akete asa ni nare
Hayai kaze uke nodo kawaita ze

Taiyoukou ni yaburu kumo
"Koko" toka de naku "haruka mukou"
Maijuubyou chikazuku suroo
Miageru katachi tsune ni toujou
Seiki mireniamu mata ni kake
Norikoeru ni wa takai kabe
Nagai yoru akete asa ni nare
Hayai kaze uke nodo kawaita ze

Karakarakara nodo uruosu no ni wa
Anatagata ga hitsuyou na no tonikaku
Nemuru karada mo okidasu
Sugu ni oretachi no koto wo hoshigaru
Aidoru taitoru ubaitoru kaisoku
Maiku motsu aidoru taikoku ubaitoru
Hip pop da hi bi da hi bi to da hip na pop star

Arashi is cool...hip na pop, you don't stop
Arashi is soul...hip na pop star
Arashi is cool tsukinukeru feels future
Arashi is soul

Arashi is back!

COOL & SOUL – Arashi

Arashi is cool, break through and feel the future
Arashi is soul, the curtain to the future opens
Arashi is cool, embrace us and feel music
Arashi is soul, nana nana...we

The five of us are playing hiphop
Or rather, a sort of imitation of hard hiphop, right?
And the curtain rises, it’s the second act
If you want to see an imitation, that’s in the second line
Yes, even in our undeveloped areas,
Our incomplete talents are restarted (hi-ho!)

For starters, try to keep up with us (yeah)
The winds have come to face our way (yeah)
If you notice, see, there’s a drop of water on your cheek (yeah)
The strong wind is pushing you from behind (yeah)

The drops of water will dry up
Don’t assume the worst case scenario
The strong wind is enough to pull our arms linked arms apart
(An encounter with the unknown) (The storm with you)

That’s why I want you to cling to me
The ones we used to care for had a shady history

"Looking for a storm, nearby is noisy
That ferocious uproar must be Arashi (a storm)"
(That's right)

The mountains and wind join together
When they create a sensation, everyone becomes excited
It’s happening right now, you are happy
I wonder if they’ll talk about this history in life to come?

From the time of the sun goddess
We were on the far outer edge of the land

The power of language that spits out towards this world

The neverending rain (yeah)
It continued for a long time, this morning dawned (yeah)
Because you are forgetful (yeah)
I sow the seeds that will remain one by one in your memory (yeah)

Yes, we will always be the tight pioneers
Ya so cute, let’s rehash it

Arashi is cool, break through and feel the future
Arashi is soul, the curtain to the future opens

The clouds are torn by the rays of the sun
It’s not about “here” but rather “way over there”
The throw comes closer every ten seconds
Shaped looking upwards, always above our heads
Century, millennium, active everywhere
There is a high wall which we have to surmount
The long night ends and morning comes
We caught the fast breeze and felt thirsty

The clouds are torn by the rays of the sun
It’s not about “here” but rather “way over there”
The throw comes closer every ten seconds
Shaped looking upwards, always above our heads
Century, millennium, active everywhere
There is a high wall which we have to surmount
The long night ends and morning comes
We caught the fast breeze and felt thirsty

To moisten our parched up throats
There is no doubt that you are all necessary
Our sleepy bodies also get out of bed
They soon want to be just like us
Taking the title of “idol” at super speed
Stealing the role of “powerful idols who hold the microphones”
Hip pop the days, the days, hip pop star

Arashi is cool...hip pop, you don't stop
Arashi is soul...hip pop star
Arashi is cool, break through and feel the future
Arashi is soul

Arashi is back!

COOL&SOUL - 嵐

ARASHI IS COOL　ツキヌケル　FEELS FUTURE
ARASHI IS SOUL　ミライヘノマクガアク
ARASHI IS COOL　ダキシメル　FEELS MUSIC
ARASHI IS SOUL　ナナ　NANA…We.

五人で奏でるのは　HIP HOP
じゃなく　真似し難い様な　HIPなHOP　right?
そして幕開け　第二章
似せてみようなら　それは第二章
そう　未開拓地　意外にも
未完の大器を再起動(hi-ho!)

俺らにまず付いてきな(yeah)
風たちがこっち向いてきた(yeah)
頬に気付くとほら水滴が(yeah)
強い風が背から吹いてきた(yeah)

水滴じゃ　なくなってくぞ
想定しな　最悪のケースを
手　組もうが吹き飛ばすほどの強風
(未知との遭遇)　(君との暴風雨)

だから俺にしがみつきなさい
守り通すヤツらだと　曰く付き

“嵐　探し　辺り騒がしい　その凄まじい　騒ぎ　まさに　嵐”
(That’s right)

山　風　合わせ
巻き起こると皆大慌て
いま居合わせる　君　幸せ
この歴史を後世に語れるだろう?

アマテラスの頃から
俺らは地上の遥か外側

下界に向けて吐き出す　言霊

もう止まない　雨が(yeah)
長く続いたこの夜が明けた(yeah)
君が忘れがちなのであれば(yeah)
いちいち記憶に残る　種蒔く(yeah)

そう俺らがあくまで　タイトなパイオニア
ya so cute　二番煎じ

ARASHI IS COOL　ツキヌケル　FEELS FUTURE
ARASHI IS SOUL　ミライヘノマクガアク

太陽光に被る雲　
“ここ”とかでなく“遥か向こう”
毎十秒近づくスロー　
見上げる形　常に頭上
世紀ミレ二アム　股にかけ　
乗り越えるには高い壁
長い夜明けて　朝になれ　
早い風受け喉渇いたぜ

カラカラカラ喉潤すのには
あなた方が必要なの　とにかく
眠る体も起き出す　すぐに俺たちの事を欲しがる
アイドル　タイトル奪い取る　快速
マイク持つアイドル大国奪い取る

HIP POP da hi bi da hi bi to da HIP

ARASHI IS COOL　…HIPなPOP, you don’t stop
ARASHI IS SOUL　…HIPなPOP star
ARASHI IS COOL　ツキヌケル　FEELS FUTURE
ARASHI IS SOUL

ARASHI IS BACK!なPOP star

2009-08-31T01:10:00.001-07:00

Hadashi no Mirai – Arashi

Zutto wasureteta okubyou na mainichi ni
Shimatta mama no jounetsu de kuzure kaketeta yume
Hizumi sou datta kono sekai ga chigireteku aimai ni
Ichibyou goto no shunkan wo warai aerun nara ii

Donna tsurai toki demo kake nukete kita hibi wo
Hitori janai to omoetara

Rikutsu janakute muchuu ni natte
Konna kimochi uso janai
Tsukareta mama no kokoro uruoshite hashirou

Hajikeru Passion! Sousa No reason!
Todoki souna ashita e
Mirai no kakera wo atsumete
Yukeba ii

Soutou kawaiteru kokoro no katasumi de
Naki dashisou na kanjou wo gomakasu hitsuyou nai
Tae manaku uchi yoseru namima ni mayoi made rinku shite
Kusunda hitomi no kage wo arai nagashite ikya ii

Itsumo furi kaeru toki sasaete kureru dareka wo
Shinjiru koto ga dekiru kara

Kotoba janakute uwabe janakute
Kazaranai de iru kara
Hashaida mune no akogare wa zutto onaji sa

Takanaru Tension! Kitto No reason!
Todoki souna ashita e
Hadashi no mirai e kono mama
Yukeba ii

Rikutsu janakute muchuu ni natte
Konna kimochi uso janai
Tsukareta mama no kokoro uruoshite hashirou

Hajikeru Passion! Sousa No reason!
Todoki souna ashita e
Mirai no kakera wo atsumete
Yukeba ii

Kotoba janakute uwabe janakute
Kazaranai de iru kara
Hashaida mune no akogare wa zutto onaji sa

Takanaru Tension! Kitto No reason!
Todoki souna ashita e
Hadashi no mirai e kono mama
Yukeba ii

Barefoot Future (Hadashi no Mirai) - Arashi

During all my timid days I had completely forgotten
I’d forgotten the dreams that had crumbled with the passion that remained closed off
This world seemed so unjust as it was torn into ambiguity
It would be great if we could smile through each and every second of it

No matter how tough things may feel
Know that you’re not alone as you run through to other days

Don’t care about the reason, just engross yourself in it
These feelings are not untrue
Let’s run off to enrich these tired emotions

Bursting with passion! That’s right, there’s no reason!
As if it may reach tomorrow
Gather the fragments of the future
Let’s just go

In a corner of our fairly dried-up hearts
We don’t need to juggle the sentiments that are about to cry
Linked to the endlessly breaking waves until the doubt leaves
It’s best to wash away the shadows of sniffling eyes

Because we can believe that whenever we turn around
There will always be someone to support us

It is not the words or the outward appearances
Because we are stripped bare here
Our excited hearts will always long for the same thing

Throbbing with tension! Surely there’s no reason!
As if it may reach tomorrow
Just like this to the barefoot future
Let’s just go

Don’t care about the reason, just engross yourself in it
These feelings are not untrue
Let’s run off to enrich these tired emotions

Bursting with passion! That’s right, there’s no reason!
As if it may reach tomorrow
Gather the fragments of the future
Let’s just go

It is not the words or the outward appearances
Because we are stripped bare here
Our excited hearts will always long for the same thing

Throbbing with tension! Surely there’s no reason!
As if it may reach tomorrow
Just like this to the barefoot future
Let’s just go

ハダシの未来 - 嵐

ずっと忘れてた臆病な毎日に
閉まったままの情熱で崩れかけてた夢
歪みそうだったこの世界がちぎれてく曖昧に
一秒ごとの瞬間を笑いあえるんならいい

どんな辛い時でも駆け抜けてきた日々を
一人じゃないと思えたら

リクツじゃなくてムチュウになって
こんなキモチ嘘じゃない
疲れたままのココロ潤して走ろう

弾けるパッション! そうさNo Reason!
届きそうな明日へ
未来のカケラを集めて
行けばいい

相当乾いてるココロの片隅で
泣き出しそうな感情を誤魔化す必要ない
絶え間なく打ち寄せる波間に迷いまでリンクして
くすんだ瞳の影を洗い流していきゃいい

いつも振り返る時支えてくれる誰かを
信じる事が出来るから

コトバじゃなくてウワべじゃなくて
飾らないでいるから
はしゃいだ胸の憧れはずっと同じさ

高鳴るテンション! きっとNo Reason!
届きそうな明日へ
ハダシの未来へこのまま
行けばいい

リクツじゃなくてムチュウになって
こんなキモチ嘘じゃない
疲れたままのココロ潤して走ろう

弾けるパッション! そうさNo Reason!
届きそうな明日へ
未来のカケラを集めて
行けばいい

コトバじゃなくてウワべじゃなくて
飾らないでいるから
はしゃいだ胸の憧れはずっと同じさ

高鳴るテンション! きっとNo Reason!
届きそうな明日へ
ハダシの未来へこのまま
行けばいい

2009-08-31T01:10:00.000-07:00

Be With You – Arashi

Hodou ni naranda fuzoroi na futatsu no kage

Yorisou you ni nobite yuku

Awatadashii toki no naka nagasarenai you ni

Bokura te wo tsunaida

Hitogomi ga nagarete isogu hito no naka de

Kanashiku natte kimi no namae yonda

Tootisugita kaze no nioi

Atarashii kisetsu e hora iro ga kawatteku

Kimi no koe de sono egao de sono subete de

Me wo hirate boku wa arukeru

Donna kako mo sonna asu mo wakachi aou

Dakara boku wa kimi no moto ni

Kimi no me ni utsuru subete no kanashimi

Sono itami nuguetara

Tooi kako kimi ga okisari ni shita yume

Zenbu kanaeyou

Toki wa nagare itsumo nanika wo kaeteku kedo

Eien wo te ni ireta bokura wa

Dare yorimo tsuyoku nareru

Mou sugu machi niwa hitotsu mirai ga kuru

Hito wo tsuyoku aisuru koto kizuita kara

Me ni mieru subete wa kagayaki dasu

Sono egao wo sono subete wo mamotte yuku

Soshite itsumo kimi to tomo ni

Kimi no koe ga sono egao ga sono subete ga

Boku wo itsumo boku ni kaeshite kureru

Donna kako mo donna asu mo kanji aou

Soshite boku wa kimi no moto ni

Soshite itsumo kimi to tomo ni

Be With You – Arashi

Two shadows lined up out of synch on the pavement

They stretch out as if they’re trying to snuggle together

To not be pulled along in the times of rush

We held each others’ hands

Within the crowds of people rushing around

I felt sad and called out your name

The scent of the breeze that blew

To the new season, see, the colors are changing

Because of your voice, your smiles, your everything

I can open my eyes and walk on

No matter what out past may be, we’ll share the future

That’s why I go to where you are

All the sadness that can be seen in your eyes

If you were to let that pain be wiped away

A far-off past and dreams that left you behind

I’ll make all of them come true

Time passes, but something will always change

We held eternity in our hands

So we can be stronger than anyone

Very soon one future will appear in this town

After people realize they love someone very deeply,

Everything they look at seems to glitter

I will care for your smiles and everything about you

And I will always be with you

Your voice, your smiles, everything about you

Always for me and always because of me

No matter what past or future we may have, we’ll feel them together

And I will go to where you are

And I will always be with you

Be With You – 嵐

舗道に並んだ不揃いな二つの影
寄り添うように伸びて行く
慌ただしい時間（とき）の中　流れない様に
ぼくら手を繋いだ…

人ゴミが流れて　急ぐ人の中で
悲しくなって君の名前　呼んだ
道り過ぎた風の匂い
新しい季節へ　ほら色が変わってく

君の声で　その笑顔で　その全てで
目を開いて僕は歩ける
どんな過去も　どんな明日も　分かち合おう
だから僕は君のもとに

君の目に映る全ての悲しみ
その痛みぬぐえたら
遠い過去　君が置き去りにした夢
全部叶えよう

時は流れいつも　何かを変えてくけど
永遠を手に入れた僕らは
誰よりも強くなれる
もうすぐ街には一つ　未来が来る

人を強く　愛する事　気づいたから
目に見える全ては輝き出す
その笑顔を　その全てを　守って行く
そしていつも君とともに

君の声が　その笑顔が　その全てが
僕をいつも僕に返してくれる
どんな過去も　どんな明日も　感じ合おう
そして僕は君のもとに
そしていつも君とともに

2009-08-31T01:09:00.001-07:00

Arashi - Cry For You Lyrics

Ikutsumo no ai wo hanashitemo
Kono deai wo koerarenai
Romio sagasu baby itami wo osoreru jurietto

Hontou wa liar sono karada ni sumu desire karamaru kagi
Futari wa mawaru mawaru i'll never miss you

Daiyamondo sae kudaku shinjitsu de

Soshite cry for you kokoro uchinuki
Ore wa die for you hontou no ai wo
Kimi dake ni subete wo hanasou ka?
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Ima wa cry for you shiawase negai
Ore wa die for you moetsukiru made
Zenshin de kimi wo uketomeru*

Pinky ring wo mada motteru no?
Hanaretetemo toki wo tsunagu
Futari ima wa tooku tooku koe ga todokanai yeah

Dejitaru no oto konna ni chikaku ni

(repeat)

Cry for you
Kimi dake ni
Cry for you

Die for you kokyuu tochuu de nani omou
Jojo ni usurete yuku yoyuu moyu
Madoromu ore fui ni osou
Yeah cry cry cry cry cry for you

You are the one for me

(repeat)

Cry for you...

2009-08-31T01:08:00.000-07:00

BY2 不够成熟 LYRICS

我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念你走以后
离开难道真的是解脱
难道真的要事过境迁了以后才懂
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手

我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念你走以后
离开难道真的是解脱
难道真的要事过境迁了以后才懂
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手

如果有一天我们有缘在见
你会不会想起说过的永远

倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手

2009-08-31T01:07:00.000-07:00

BY2 爱丫爱丫 LYRICS

把愛留在身邊窗外有個藍藍的天
落葉那一瞬間記得多穿一件

一天過了一天我的日記卻病奄奄
我們隔得太遠太遠

多喜歡你從來不會說
多在乎你到底懂不懂
你有沒有對我一點點心動

愛我的話給我回答
我的愛丫愛丫沒時差
等待是我為你付出的代價喔

愛我的話要回答
我只等你等你一句話
走太遠你走太遠你的回答聽不見

2009-08-31T01:06:00.000-07:00

心墙~~郭静
一个人　眺望碧海和蓝天

在心里面　那抹灰就淡一些

海豚从眼前飞越　

我看见了最阳光的笑脸

好时光都该被宝贝　因为有限

我学着不去担心得太远

不计划太多　反而能勇敢冒险

丰富地过每一天　快乐地看每一天　Wooh～

第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸

有什么故事好想了解　

我感觉我懂你的特别

你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗

偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光

就算你有一道墙　

我的爱会攀上窗台盛放　

打开窗你会看到悲伤融化

你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳

2009-08-31T01:05:00.000-07:00

可不可以爱我-卢学叡

为什麽如此的安静
为什麽明明想靠近却还在迟疑
努力的我保持镇定
努力开拓话题
最後却溃不成军

为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛
怎麽都是你

你可不可以爱我
可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落

你可不可以爱我
可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我
快乐还是寂寞

制作：十三月ｄｅ愛

为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛
怎麽都是你

你可不可以爱我
可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落

你可不可以爱我
可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我快乐还是寂寞

想念燃烧个不停
我快置身灰烬
你是我的呼吸

你可不可以爱我
可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落

你可不可以爱我
可不可以看我
我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我能给我什麽
快乐还是寂寞

2009-08-31T00:15:00.000-07:00

tml going back GM to celebrate TEACHER'S DAY..

not going back to simei..

somehow i think very bored..

dont feel like schooling..

life now is like hell..

seriouly im crazy now..

going back to the mood of studying..

better hurry den regret..

i hate too much of regrets already..

anyway thats nothing i can do much..

y not study den wasting my time in something that will not do any help to me..

ALISA MA!!

GO BACK TO THE STUDYING MOOD!!

OR ELSE YOU CAN JUST GO AND KILL YOURSELF NOW!!

NOTHING CAN HELP YOU IN YOUR LIFE IF YOU KEEP DOING THIS TO YOURSELF!!

THE ONLY WAY IS TO BRAIN WASH YOURSELF AND GET BACK TO THE RIGHT TRACK!!

2009-08-23T22:08:00.000-07:00

shit man..

tml is DMT test..

ah.. hate it..

stupid test.. so hard la..

plus i dont have the mood to study..

and everything seems so hard..

wat should i do man..

seriously i need to get my mood back to study..

but is so hard to forget HIM..

wth am i doing now..

this is not wat i wanted..

this is totally wrong..

this shouldnt be happening..

all i wan is to start everything all over again..

to where i just knew HIM..

without regretting anything that happen..

i really hate all the regretful feeling..

its really not wat i wanted..

I REALLY HATE THIS LIFE NOW!!

I WAN TO GO BACK TO THE START!!

TO WHERE THE TEARS DOESNT EXIST..

TO WHERE I CAN STILL SMILE BRIGHTLY AND HAPPILY..

NOT A SMILE WITH A BROKEN HEART..

2009-08-21T21:49:00.000-07:00

hey!! back again..
i always like MIA from blog..
hahahahaha..

last week when for BL camp..
the camp is from friday - sunday..
den monday super tired lo..
den whole week in class sleep lo..
super tired..
when teacher talking i feel like the teacher is singing to me la..
asking me to sleep..

den never study again lo.
so sian. my test didn't pass well lo..
tml need study liao..
monday got DMT test.
scared already lo almost fail once before..
hiax.. don't know how to study for DMT..

den got recording again..
face test need remember how to use the mixer..
hiax..

SERIOUSLY I DONT NOE WAT IS HAPPENING TO ME NOW..
IM NOT INTERESTED IN ANYTHING..
DONT EVEN HAVE THE MOOD..
WAT THE HELL AM I DOING MAN..
WAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!!
WATS WITH ALL THE MOODY LIFE MAN..
STUPID MOODY MOOD GO AWAY CAN..
STOP STAYING IN ME GO FIND SOMEONE ELSE..
ANYONE ACCEPT ME..
I REALLY HATE THIS THING IN ME..
I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE..
GO AWAY..

I ALREADY WAN TO START OVER..
GO AWAY.. I DONT WAN TO REMEMBER U ANYMORE..
I JUST WAN TO STUDY FOR NOW..
EVERYTHING IS RUBBISH..
Y DO I ALWAYS SO TRUST IN R/S AND GET MYSELF INTO ALL SOTS OF PROBLEM..
INCLUDING HURTING MYSELF..
Y AM I ALWAYS SO STUPID..
HURTING MYSELF AGAIN AND AGAIN..
SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE DIEING..
THE TEARS JUST NEVER STOPS FLOWING OUT MY EYES..

2009-07-12T01:54:00.000-07:00

WOW.. really i didn't noe i look like a bull ler..

hmm.. let me think..

a bull..

bull fat meh??

i thought there just crazy at time..

hmm..

clumsy elephant..

i didn't noe elephant are clumsy..

i thought they just scared of rats..

what wrong with me being fat..

so cannot ah.. ur problem meh..

at least better den a bamboo..

so easy break..

HAHAHAHAHHAHA..

aiyo laugh too much..

2009-07-07T20:53:00.000-07:00

seriously speaking, i dont know who is the one who is humji lor....if ure so brave..why dont you use ur name instead of using 'passerby' to comment here?

i dont see a need to justify my actions because i think people who read my comments box here or my blog will know who the humji is

but i dont know about u...ur actions til date has onli shown that YOU are the humji one..using passerby...spamming my comments box...all the while talking nonsensical and empty talk..

and to say that i or my friends are lame...its like the pot calling the kettle black...oh wait. do you even KNOW what that means? or too deep for you?

2009-07-01T17:20:00.000-07:00

i write about people my problem rite..

y must i apologise??

please la..

sorry we don't talk cock..

we speak english..

2009-06-30T23:30:00.000-07:00

EH PASSER SO WHAT IF I SUCK YOUR PROBLEM AH..

KPKB IN MY TAG..

CHILDISH A NOT..

SO LONG AGO THE THING TAKE OUT AND TALK..

KPKB IN MY TAG..

SORRY HOH..

I NOT SO FREE KPKB WITH YOUR..

GET OUT OF MY BLOG..

ARE YOU BLIND I SAID SPAMMERS NOT WELCOME..

YOUR ENGLISH FAIL OR CANNOT SEE PROPERLY..

KPKB..

2009-06-26T18:57:00.000-07:00

WA...

so many tag..

nth better do..

so long the thing liao now bring out and tok..

crazy..

i cant be bored with you guys..

and tis is my blog y canot i write wat i wan..

u say delete den i must delete ah..

wu liao..

2009-06-15T00:17:00.000-07:00

When a GIRL is quiet, Millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing,She is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions,She is wondering how long you will be around. When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a few seconds,She is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you, She is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest, She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday, She wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says I love you, She means it. When a GIRL says "i miss you", No one in this world can miss you more than that Leave a message......:-*

Love Means... (a girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on a motorcycle)

Girl: Slow down. Im scared.

Guy: No this is fun.

Girl: No its not. Please, its to scary!

Guy: Then tell me you love me.

Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!

Guy: Now give me a BIG hug. (Girl hugs him)

Guy: Can u take my helmet off and put it on? Its bugging me.

In the paper the next day: A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on the motorcycle, but only one survived.

The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know.

Instead, he had her say she loved him, felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so she would live even though it meant he would die.

You have to take the good with the bad,

smile with the sad,

love what you've got and remember what you had.

Always forgive, but never forget, learn from your mistakes, but never regret.

PEOPLE CHANGE, THINGS GO WRONG, but just remember life goes on.

i want a world i can call my own

where no one els may enter

where my mind can wounder far & free

where my own thoughts may enter

no one els may come here

its my own world,not theres

so no one can step foot in here

no one els,but its creater

He looks into my eyes as if they were deep oceans..and tells me he loves me.

He sais he would rather feel my soft lips on his than for me to give him head.

He would wants to hold me close just to feel my heart pound.

He comes over everyday not for sex but to just be with me..

he values every moment spent with me.

He sais im buetiful even when i just woke up and my hair is a mess.

When i cry he gently wipes my tears away.

He loves me and this is how I know.

True love walked out the door

Couldn't take it no more

True love

It broke my heart

You make my whole life sore

He said he'd be my baby

Then why did he betray me?

Temptation got to his head

Then I left him, yeah

And this is what I said

It feels like it's gonna be okay

(It's gonna be okay)

It feels right

It just feels that way

(It just feels that way)

It feels like

It'll be a better day

Cause I believe that in the end

Good things are coming my way

The days go by slowly when I dont think of you.

It makes my whole day go blue,

The sun dosnt shine when your heart isnt mine.

The day gose slow like I am stuck in a hole.

it makes my like stricking without a love like yours.

Your emo hair... i just have to stair,

I love just about everything about you!

i have a crush on u.

my love 4 u is like a million times 2.

im hoping that u will see my love shining thru any day.

shining thru the thick foggy haze.

i hope that one day u will have a crush on me 2.

because i love u i really do.

You slowly walk forward unarmed.

Your heart beats up against your chest.

You know something is there.

A small ping is heard and you turn, you fists clenched as if to strike.

You hear a growl.

A growl of a dog, you step closer and it appears from behind a desk.

Its flesh is torn in places and blood covers the creature from head to toe.

It reeks of rotting flesh,

and as it steps towards you it curls its lips back revealing its sharp teeth...

It wants you dead...

To suffer like it is...

-------------------------------------

Eating breakfast! Leave some love ^-^

Accidents do happen

I slip, I trip, I stumble

and i fall usually i dont mind at all

but now i dont know what to do cuz i slipped and fell in love with you!

As perfect as a flaw

As weakened as my strength

Unstable as my harbor

As dry as the rain

I come to you confused

Perfectly clear in mind

I watch as people pass

With me by their sides

I love it when I hate you.

And hate it when I love.

I'm soaring like an eagle

With the meekness of a dove.

Let me sink.

Let hope float.

Let me drown in sealess waters.

Let me come up for air

To find nobody's there.

Let me laugh.

Let me cry.

Don't stop hugging goodbye.

Never face me again

When you look me in the eyes.

As perfect as a flaw

As weakened as my strength

Unstable as my harbor

As dry as the rain

I come to you confused

Perfectly clear in mind

I watch as people pass

With me by their sides

I love it when I hate you.

And hate it when I love.

I'm soaring like an eagle

With the meekness of a dove.

Let me sink.

Let hope float.

Let me drown in sealess waters.

Let me come up for air

To find nobody's there.

Let me laugh.

Let me cry.

Don't stop hugging goodbye.

Never face me again

When you look me in the eyes.

love is like a knife or a razor...it hurts.

when my world turns upside down i think of u and it turns around.

when my world turns inside out i think of you and it makes mw shout.

Every time i think of u i always wish that u would love me 2.

Pain,look into my eyes and that all you'll see.

Sarrow,Its all i think about...It feels like every thing that happened is my fault.

Saddness,The look on my face that also says "Misrable".To

think it all started when i feel in love..

The tears i cry are from you, the marks and bruises i have are from you, the broken heart i have is from you, yet the weird thing is i still love you and always will.

i can b dyin from thirst, hungriness, craziness.

i can b dyin from a disease, a wound.

i can b dyin from anything, but wen i am dying, i never gonna let go him, im gonna hold him wit my every last strenth, even if it takes my last breath to do it.

thats cuz im holding on to him wen im dying from the ultimate disease.......and thats

~LOVE~

love is wat u feel when u have some1 special!!!love is also when u kno tht u can have tht person for eva!!

L=LIFE

O=CCASION

V=ALINTINE

E=VERYTHING

P.S(COPY AND PASTE)

If you say you love me

make sure it's true

bcuz im tired of all

the bullshit, u put my ass through...

Cupid should hit himself with one of those dam arrows n see how much love hurts!!

When i first saw you i was in love.

Then I found out that you were in love with sombody else.

My heart felt lost and I had to cry but when u left her i felt so much better.

You found out that i Love u and that i would neva go away...

Emotions are when you have someone that held your heart, and never gave it back.

A first love lasts forever, and forever isn't long enough to get over it.

We are young, heart ache to heart ache we stand, love is a battlefield.

Why is it that my heart beats faster and slower when I'm around you?

Why can't I sleep wen I think of you?

Wherever you are, I hope you're thinking of me too...

I'll stop loving you when

Diamonds never sparkle

And flowers cease to grow

When thunder doesn't echo

And rivers do not flow

When hearts no longer wonder

And hands are never held

When smiles are only memories

And hope is never felt

When trees no long blossom

And the stars refuse to shine

When autumn has no falling leaves

And winter no longer dies

When time has no more tomorrows

And rainbows have no hue

When God alone commands me

Then I'll stop loving you

I Love ****** So Much

Find a guy ...

who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says, " That's her!! "

2009-06-12T22:35:00.000-07:00

怎么办??

他已经真正地有一个女朋友le!!

我很哀伤。 sobsob。我在我的生活中做的最坏的事是让您走。我应该做什么？我真正地不知道什么做。我不知道什么做。我不知道什么做。我不知道什么做。我不知道什么做。

2009-06-05T01:23:00.000-07:00

What is this??

missing you in this way doesn't make anything better...

Y must i miss u so badly NOW..

right at this time..

y cant i forget you..

OMG!!

YOUR like a DRUG to me..

i cant stop thinking of you..

appearing in my dreams, my mind..

everything that i do..

i think of you...

y cant i just forget everything about you...???

GOD is this my punishment for what i didn't in the 1st place??

Did not know what to do??

What my heart was thinking??

What was my feeling at that time of my life towards him??

so what if i regretted it now..

does everything going to go back where it started?? the ans is NO...

seriously i don't know what to do RIGHT NOW!!!

i just want to go out of this place where i didn't want to be in the very beginning...

if at started from a STUPID JERK...

but it wasn't a bad thing to know you not till now that many things have happen..

i like the way when everything started but not the end..

i hate the end..

never regretting know you..

but to push you away from me when i know i really need you in my life..

i don't know why I'M so STUPID to do that..

ever since that day..

i have never seen you..

life without you is hard to live in..

NOW i know life without you is horrible..

all i want to do is to have you back in my life..

maybe this is impossible..

this is the 1st time I'm so serious in r/s..

maybe i don't deserved it..

finding the pieces of my heart from the day that you really left..

2009-05-20T22:00:00.000-07:00

sux man to day MFDI nid finish the NEWSLETTER work and pass up..

do until i wan to die la..

this cannot that cannot..

den still nid design nicely..

picture must be 300 resalution and CMYK..

idiot la..

HATE MFDI...

nxt wk is phase test also..

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH....

den 3 june is thoery..

wtf.. hate thoery too..

so many things to remember..

BUT i love IFA...

althought sometimes cannot understand wat the teacher say becos im not paying attention..

but at least i see the book i noe how to do..

or when the teacher or my friend teach me i noe..

onli sometimes the thing cannot load properly den nid get teacher help..

After MDFI when for meeting at tampines mall de kopitiam..

den kana di siao by them..

wa liao..

den so qiao wear the clothe color the same worst la..

kana di siao more..

den me and ando when to toilet..

she nv remind me to bring clothe to change lo..

den i change with her den she change to class t..

the meeting damn bored lo..

i almost fall asleep lo..

den when to eat dinner with ando half way though the meeting...

we when mac to eat..

den suddenly my grandmother call me and ask me to go home by 930pm la..

den MSG ah long tell him i go home 1st cos nid reach home by 930..

den eat fast fast den go take MRT go home..

den YUHRU call and meet us..

den when home together..

super funny la in the MRT..

the 3 of us talk and talk den asual i when crazy..

and talk crap again lo..

den when going to reach home the time i thought reach KALLANG liao..

den wan to go down lo..

den ando pull me and say eh here onli aljunied ler..

u siao ah.. den YUHRU also laugh like siao la..

then she when down.. she walk super fast sia..

super sonic legs..

ahhahahahahhahahahahhahahahahhahaha...

2009-05-09T21:37:00.000-07:00

this few days damn tiring....

got meeting den school work nid do give teacher..

den nid buy thing, take thing...

when home late still canot slp..

still nid do thing..

den help out in graduation day..

den meet ppl..

ah.. so tired..

but at least all this tiredness are worth it..

all the out come were good..

everything when smoothly..

enjoin it too..

but somethings happen..

Let show YOU how NERD i am for the graduation day...

hahahahahhaha...

super funny too..

2009-04-26T22:48:00.000-07:00

This is some photo on sat at east coast park..

i end up becoming lobster under the sun...

hahahahhahaha...

2009-04-21T22:00:00.000-07:00

We do almost everything that lovers do
And that’s why it’s hard just to be friends with you
Every time your heart is broken by the fool
I want you to know that it hurts me, too
It’s hard to wipe your tears away (tears away)
Knowing that you should be with me
Now tell me why

Why are we still friends
When everything says
We should be more than we are
And tell me why
Every time I find someone that I love
We always end up just being friends (just being friends)

And I would hate for you to find somebody new
Who you really loved 'cause it would mean losing you
But am I a fool girl not to say (say)
(Ooohhh) If I’m always scared, I’ll lose you anyway
Somehow some way I’ve got to choose (ooh got to choose)
No matter if it’s win or lose, (lose)
Now tell me why

I don’t wanna be like your brother
I don’t wanna be your best friend
I only wanna be your lover
When will this end
If I told you that I wanna be in your life
Then you could be the woman in mine
Now tell me why

2009-04-17T22:47:00.000-07:00

OMG!!

Im so tired this whole week..

and my eyes hurt man..

HOMEWORK!

HOMEWORK!!

HOMEWORK!!!

After holiday SUCK man..

suddenly so busy..

so many thing to do..

wan to kill myself already..

2009-04-17T00:04:00.000-07:00

If I die..

I will reincarnate and be the sky..

That YOU ever wanted it to be..

A sky that can warm YOUR heart..

When YOU see out the window..

When YOUR walking along the street..

A sky that can make YOUR day worth all the tiredness..

A sky that can comfort YOU when YOUR sad..

I wan to be the sky cos..

I can see YOU where ever YOU are..

What YOUR doing..

Watching YOU when i misses YOU!!

Protect YOU and watch over YOU..

Giving YOU the sky that YOU want..

Giving YOU a happy day..

=When the sky is raining means I'm sad, missing YOU, wanting to be by YOUR side..

=When the sky is raining and there is sun means i wan YOU to be happy and not sad anymore..

=When the sky is sunny means I'm happy cos YOUR happy too..

=When the sky is cloudy means I'm moody cos i didn't see the smile on YOUR face..

=When the sky is blue means I'm relaxing cos YOUR enjoining YOUR day..

=When the sky is dark means I'm watching YOUR sweet sleep face..

Never want to close my eyes to sleep..

Just want to watch YOUR face all the way..

Doesn't matter how tired i will be..

What is the consequence..

What is the sacrifices..

Doesn't matter if i will suffer like in hell..

All i want is just to be by YOUR side not leaving YOU every second..

Every breath that i have left..